Remember What You Can't

There's something that lurks in the darkest parts of our minds, something we can't grasp up until in the moment where we need it the most. When your body and mind does not choose to flight, to run away, in that deepest part of your mind, it's triggered and soon, you're stained with blood, you attack and it goes away when the threat is gone. You have no memory, only shock and fear, a wish for whatever harmed you will never come back. But it will, you know it will.

Close your eyes and try to remember a memory, something happy or maybe even sad, whatever triggers deep emotions and try to repress it. You can't. It's there, it won't go away; remember something traumatic and when you can, it triggers panic attacks; anxiety and the flight and fight process starts again, you relive something that hurts. Try to remember something, anything, that brings calmness and it won't come.

Figure out who you are throughout your years of life...

...And me...I...

I don't even know who I am.